It’s almost routine; This cycle of breaking up and getting back together. For the past two years, I have been trapped in a merry go ’round. That sick feeling I get whenever I see you may just be from all the spinning. At least, that’s what I tell myself.
The more times it spins around, the more times I question how real this is. Am I feeling love, or am I trying to find the easiest way to put the spinning to a halt. Which ever it is, I’m always left standing in the cold, wishing to have you back.
Here I am, waiting for the inevitable. Sitting in my room all alone, wishing I could just be with you.
This is the point where I meet a cross roads. It happens every time. The ride has slowed down just enough for me to jump off, leaving me with a few bruises. But it is also allowing me to stay on, and the spinning will speed up again soon. The question is: Do I let it?